i cant see
behind your intoxicated nature
and your drunken smile
as you bleed transparency
and blink those empty eyes
i had longed to know.
i can’t find
but a thread of your soul
and the sliver of your heart
keeping you alive.
i miss the laugh i never heard
[as the world you lost
everything you could possibly be]
as the slurred words i only slightly understood
seep through the crack in your all but hollow self
letting through the lonely tears of humanity
that have all but bled dry
to throw paint at your blank fate
to ignore the brokenheartedreality
the beautiful potential i never saw.
and as i remember the moments never had
miss the self i never met
and the future never reflected in our passing
you’re not my canvas
but with your heart so far away
to be your own.